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breeld   posted:3/25/2013 5:28:09 PM  (Reply)
Whoever you pray to-god, mother earth, allah, whatever. please say a prayer for me and my family.
My oldest son, John, took his life sometime during the night, and I really am hurting badly right now.
Undescribable heartache.
You guys, and spooky, give me so much fun talking to you, and reading your posts.
Just thanks.
Jaxerback   posted:3/25/2013 9:01:18 PM  (Reply)
Jesus,sorry to hear that,I hope you and your family can find the strength to pull through this horrendous time.
LincolnGenghis   posted:3/26/2013 1:06:42 AM  (Reply)
My prayers and thoughts are with you.
breeld   posted:3/26/2013 4:25:02 AM  (Reply)
Thank you guys so much.
spooky1   posted:3/26/2013 5:14:25 AM  (Reply)
Oh my God my dearest Bree-bree. I can not express how upset & hurt I am for u! I no how much u love ur boys. I will definitely pray for ur son, for u, & ur family. My thoughts r with u honey. U have my email & fone # so if u ever need to talk more personally PLEASE never hesitate to contact me! I am hear for u & if u need ANYTHING do not hesitate to ask. As u no iv tryed to take my life several times & I want u to no there was nothing u or anyone else could have done to help - trust me I no. My love to u & ur family. & I hope to hear from u soon. Luv spooky
breeld   posted:3/26/2013 6:36:27 AM  (Reply)
Thank you so much, spooky. Will really need the prayers today, for the planning part.
spooky1   posted:3/26/2013 7:32:09 AM  (Reply)

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breeld  posted:3/26/2013 6:36:27 AM  (Reply)
Thank you so much, spooky. Will really need the prayers today, for the planning part.
Prayers have been said Hon. Planning, in my mind is the hardest. But they say its an important part of the healing process. Keep ur faith, Bree & remember I'm always hear. Ill leave u my email again. Much luv
jeff   posted:3/26/2013 8:13:39 AM  (Reply)
Hang in there Breeld. Sorry to hear about your loss. :(
gary107   posted:3/26/2013 11:08:09 AM  (Reply)
to raise a child and then to loose them must be the greatest of all human pain. - gary
gary107   posted:3/26/2013 11:08:30 AM  (Reply)
to raise a child and then to loose them must be the greatest of all human pain. - gary
breeld   posted:3/26/2013 11:25:40 AM  (Reply)
Thank you Jeff. And, yes, Gary, it has to be the greatest pain you`ll ever suffer.
breeld   posted:3/26/2013 11:32:11 AM  (Reply)
This is my memorial I wrote on his facebook today. You can check it under John Helms






Brenda


My three sons, John, Randy and Daniel, have always been my reason for living. They are my heart. They have always been the lights of my life. Yesterday, one of the lights went out. My oldest son, John, took his life, and a part of me with it. He could no longer bear the pain and anguish of the depression he was suffering from. No, I`m not angry with him. I`m angry that he suffered so much that he had to do this. I`m sad... for me, for his brothers, his children, his wife, and all the rest of the family and friends that have ever had the pleasure of knowing John. And it WAS a pleasure. He was a caring, compassionate, tender and loving man. He was a very sensitive person, and perhaps the sensitivity made it hard for him to cope with what he was going through.
He was always very proud to say he was a "Momma`s Boy". He wore that phrase like a badge of honor, but the honor was all mine. I am so very proud to be known as John Helm`s mother. John, you will always be my baby, and I`ll love you forever and through eternity
Wereparadox   posted:3/26/2013 2:05:11 PM  (Reply)
I'm so sorry Bre. Death is hardest for us still here on earth. But it is not an end just a change of location. I hate death and know no words can stop that pain. Only time which is both our friend and our enemy will ease that type of wound. John's journey is far from over its just taken a new path. If you believe in the paranormal than you believe in possibilities.
breeld   posted:3/26/2013 3:15:22 PM  (Reply)
I do, and I know he is still around somewhere. Strange things happening. The night before we found out he had died, he came to his wife in her sleep and told her to promise to buy 2 plots next to each other, in a certain cemetery . She said she told him to stop talking like that. He said to just promise him she`d do it. The next morning, we found out he had died. Then a couple that were friends of theirs, came to her house and GAVE her 2 plots next to each other, in the same cemetery he had wanted to be buried in. They didn`t know about the dream. He had no insurance, and we didn`t have the money we needed to have a full burial, with embalming, etc. Other friends donated money so we could do it right. That wasn`t paranormal, but the part about the dream certainly was. It showed he was still around to be able to tell her that.
midnightgiant   posted:3/26/2013 3:57:17 PM  (Reply)
My deepest condolences Breeld. I have 3 brothers... I can't even imagine losing one.
breeld   posted:3/26/2013 4:07:39 PM  (Reply)
Thank you, midnight
spooky1   posted:3/27/2013 6:29:32 PM  (Reply)

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breeld  posted:3/26/2013 3:15:22 PM  (Reply)
I do, and I know he is still around somewhere. Strange things happening. The night before we found out he had died, he came to his wife in her sleep and told her to promise to buy 2 plots next to each other, in a certain cemetery . She said she told him to stop talking like that. He said to just promise him she`d do it. The next morning, we found out he had died. Then a couple that were friends of theirs, came to her house and GAVE her 2 plots next to each other, in the same cemetery he had wanted to be buried in. They didn`t know about the dream. He had no insurance, and we didn`t have the money we needed to have a full burial, with embalming, etc. Other friends donated money so we could do it right. That wasn`t paranormal, but the part about the dream certainly was. It showed he was still around to be able to tell her that.
Bree, when I told u I prayed for everyone I asked that ur son makes himself know to u & let's u no he's ok. Maybe he's doing just that. He is ok Bree-bree, I'm just sorry for alls the hurt
breeld   posted:3/27/2013 10:33:15 PM  (Reply)
Thank you all. Tonight was the viewing. I didn`t think I could do it, but actually did ok. There were so many people there. I wish he could have seen how many people loved him, and how he touched everyone`s life. Then again, maybe he DID see it. And yes, something else happened that let us know he is around. It`s late, and I`m tired, but after I get thru the hardest part tomorrow, I will tell you all about what happened last night. Thank you all again for letting me unburden myself on here. You all are the greatest.
Wereparadox   posted:3/27/2013 11:23:47 PM  (Reply)
Your welcome Bre Bre. I don't like to speak for others but I think its safe to say that you have much love from all of us and we all wish the best for you and your fam. The hard part is almost done and you come unload whatever you need. That's what we all do. In one way or another here. Just remember not gone just moved.
breeld   posted:3/28/2013 6:49:47 AM  (Reply)
Werep, thank you for that. I don`t normally unload problems on ppl, but this has just
been a biggie for me.


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